Blogs are meant to convey thoughts, feelings, opinions, and critiques. This blog, however is meant to share thoughts, feelings, theology, and well, observations. The site as you can see is simply linked as stephenjmelniszyn.org. Simple as it can be. Just as I like. The decision to create this blog is threefold. The first being that I am wanting to share with you the reader, my journey through this passing life. I wanted to express my feelings, my emotions, and thoughts with you. Why? Well, the last three months have perhaps been the most hardest and trying times of my life.
On January 16th, I lost my father to COVID and then several weeks later, I would lose my younger brother, William to COVID as well. My Mother died in when I was in the military back in 2002. Now, my immediate family has departed this earth into eternity. My world fell apart in a matter of weeks. I lost a father I so dearly loved and a younger brother I have not seen in decades. The only thing that I have seen of him are a small vial of his ashes that I have in my room. This year has taken a heavy toll on me mentally, physically, and spiritually. Rather than keep these feelings concealed; I thought it be a good idea to get back into writing, thus sharing those feelings. Why? Well, I am know that I am not the only one who has lost close family members to this virus. I know that there are many others out there who are walking through the valley as I am.
It is only by the grace of God, the loving embrace of the Lord Jesus Christ that I have not lost my mind and fallen into madness. Their deaths have set me deep into depression, and anxiety for the last three months. It is here that I want to share my journey with you. I know that there are those of you who are believers, who are perhaps ashamed to speak of depression, grief, and sorrow. It is a very real thing in the Christian life and one that we must tend too. We must not ignore it. Nor we must conceal these feelings, but share them. It is not easy I know, but one thing that I do know is that though I walk through this valley and feel alone. I am not. The Lord has been there every step of the way. My feelings do not change His covenant promises. We change like the weather, but He is immutable and unchanging and thank God for that.
As David writes in Psalm 23, “Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death. I will fear no evil, For YOU ARE WITH ME.”
I pray that this blog edifies, encourages, and uplifts the downcast soul.
Stephen J. Melniszyn
SOLI DEO GLORIA