I sit here.

Tears stream down my swollen cheeks.

The Month of May begins this week and I was reminded of a few things.

My Mother passed away on May 26th, 2002 while was based in Izmir, Turkey. She was taken into eternity that night which was her birthday.

My Father who passed away back on January 16th of this year was born May 10, 1954.

Mother’s Day is Sunday, May 9th this year.

Needless to say that the month of May will be hard on me mentally and spiritually.

My blood family are all deceased and here I remain. Alone. Without them. I do know the will of the Lord and what lies ahead. I mean, I pray and ask why at times He took them, but then I am reminded that the Lord conducts His will and does not need to tell me why. I am reminded throughout the pages of Holy Scripture to trust in Him in these moments.

I must admit that it is hard.

It is in these moments that I must pray and remind myself that focus must be in the Lord Jesus Christ and Him Alone.

I will continue to grieve over the loss of the people I loved. I will cherish every memory that I have and I thank the Lord for the time He allowed to have with each of them.

I do not know the plans of what the Lord has for me through all of this. I must and will trust Him to guide me through the storms of this season and the ones to come.

All I have is Christ.

The hymn that has been a daily listen for me is Christ the Sure and Steady Anchor. So, I end this post with the lyrics. I know many of you have lost your loved ones of late and many of you are suffering and perhaps wondering if Christ has forgotten you in you trials.

He has not. He is the sure and Steady Anchor.

Soli Deo Gloria!

Christ the sure and steady Anchor
In the fury of the storm
When the winds of doubt blow through me
And my sails have all been torn
In the suffering, in the sorrow
When my sinking hopes are few
I will hold fast to the Anchor
It shall never be removed

Christ the sure and steady Anchor
While the tempest rages on
When temptation claims the battle
And it seems the night has won
Deeper still then goes the Anchor
Though I justly stand accused
I will hold fast to the Anchor
It shall never be removed
No, It shall never be removed

Christ the sure and steady Anchor
Through the floods of unbelief
Hopeless somehow, O my soul, now
Lift your eyes to Calvary
This my ballast of assurance
See His love forever proved
I will hold fast to the Anchor
It shall never be removed

Christ the sure and steady Anchor
As we face the wave of death
When these trials give way to glory
As we draw our final breath
We will cross that great horizon
Clouds behind and life secure
And the calm will be the better

For the storms that we endure
Christ the sure of our salvation
Ever faithful, ever true
We will hold fast to the Anchor
It shall never be removed