I sit here.
Tears stream down my swollen cheeks.
The Month of May begins this week and I was reminded of a few things.
My Mother passed away on May 26th, 2002 while was based in Izmir, Turkey. She was taken into eternity that night which was her birthday.
My Father who passed away back on January 16th of this year was born May 10, 1954.
Mother’s Day is Sunday, May 9th this year.
Needless to say that the month of May will be hard on me mentally and spiritually.
My blood family are all deceased and here I remain. Alone. Without them. I do know the will of the Lord and what lies ahead. I mean, I pray and ask why at times He took them, but then I am reminded that the Lord conducts His will and does not need to tell me why. I am reminded throughout the pages of Holy Scripture to trust in Him in these moments.
I must admit that it is hard.
It is in these moments that I must pray and remind myself that focus must be in the Lord Jesus Christ and Him Alone.
I will continue to grieve over the loss of the people I loved. I will cherish every memory that I have and I thank the Lord for the time He allowed to have with each of them.
I do not know the plans of what the Lord has for me through all of this. I must and will trust Him to guide me through the storms of this season and the ones to come.
All I have is Christ.
The hymn that has been a daily listen for me is Christ the Sure and Steady Anchor. So, I end this post with the lyrics. I know many of you have lost your loved ones of late and many of you are suffering and perhaps wondering if Christ has forgotten you in you trials.
He has not. He is the sure and Steady Anchor.
Soli Deo Gloria!
Christ the sure and steady Anchor In the fury of the storm When the winds of doubt blow through me And my sails have all been torn In the suffering, in the sorrow When my sinking hopes are few I will hold fast to the Anchor It shall never be removed Christ the sure and steady Anchor While the tempest rages on When temptation claims the battle And it seems the night has won Deeper still then goes the Anchor Though I justly stand accused I will hold fast to the Anchor It shall never be removed No, It shall never be removed Christ the sure and steady Anchor Through the floods of unbelief Hopeless somehow, O my soul, now Lift your eyes to Calvary This my ballast of assurance See His love forever proved I will hold fast to the Anchor It shall never be removed Christ the sure and steady Anchor As we face the wave of death When these trials give way to glory As we draw our final breath We will cross that great horizon Clouds behind and life secure And the calm will be the better For the storms that we endure Christ the sure of our salvation Ever faithful, ever true We will hold fast to the Anchor It shall never be removed